Sometimes it just hurts so bad.

Would I ever be able to forget? Would I ever be able and willing to let you go, however hard I try?

The epilogue.

It's been nearly three years since I've started this blog. I know that no one uses blogger anymore these days, but hey, it can always be my little personal diary. Just so you know, this will be my final blog post. I've heard countless people tell me that I've changed, and I make no attempts to deny that; I know deep down that I have indeed changed, and perhaps for the better. Three years ago, when I set up this blog, part of my intentions was to discuss about anime and manga. A mere three years later, the passion which I've once held for anime is now gone. Vanished. All that's left is disappointment and disgust at how commercialized the anime industry has become. Gone are the anime-related posters and figurines in my room, the only remnants left of them are either gifts, or Gundam-related models XD When I first began losing interest, I asked myself, "What is becoming of me? Why have I stopped becoming interested in anime?" but soon it became clear to me that it wasn't me who's losing interest, it's the industry that's keeping me from becoming interested. The industry has become so saturated with plotless anime titles that features nothing but cutely-drawn girls, so much so that I think the creators have stopped innovating and brainstorming altogether. All they do is feed the creepy otakus with what they want. Fanservice. They no longer see the need to create. What happened to the witty, well-thought and deep anime series we used to have? What happened to those epic, hollywood-worthy action titles we used to see? Gone. All gone. Perhaps I'm being a little too harsh on the producers. After all, money is the very reason why they are producing anime in the first place. It's the fans, I tell you; them sickening otakus. Either way, I've lost faith in the industry; maybe it's the decline of the industry, maybe it's the lack innovation, maybe it's the oversaturation of cute, worthless anime. Or maybe I've just grown up. I've not entirely lost hope yet, however. I'll be keeping an eye out for any Studio Ghibli works in the future, as well as any new Gundam series. I'll probably need a miracle to bring me back into the fandom, though. It was fun while it lasted.

I'm sorry, but it's time for me to move on.

You guys were right. I have changed.

And now I'm disappointed at myself for being like this.

Stare

This has transcended beyond 'like'.

I can't help but think about you day and night.

But...

I love you more than anything else in this world, but I shall never tell a single soul, and you probably will never know ;_;

You.

My heart races every time our eyes meet. I can't help it, but I've fallen so hopelessly in love you. It's too late for me to change my mind now.

But do you know, do you care?